Reminiscing

離開家裏已經四年了   1,461天好像在一瞬間就過去了

比起以前二十一嵗的我   現在的我應該成熟多了

長大的過程中發現   二十二嵗的心痛   好比十三嵗、二十嵗時   加倍的痛

是不是隨著年紀的增長   付出的越多  所以也傷得越重?

該愛的也愛了   該恨的也恨了

這幾年來   不僅失去了所謂的愛情   也失去了友情

有時恨不得時光倒流   好讓我有更改歷史的能力   可一切都已成定局   是時候放棄失去的東西

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似乎也越來越容易見到別人的美   可以是一個笑容   一個眼神   一顆眼淚

以前重視的   只是外在的美   現在終于明白   一個人的美麗   可以是内在的

我今天看見媽媽的笑容   在那皺紋與垂下的眼角下   她還是那麽的漂亮、美麗

看著妹妹   我看到了一個女孩的美麗

在女孩還沒變成少女的這個階段   是稀少   最值得回憶的

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兩年前   我鼓起了勇氣   接受了與他一起生活的挑戰

那時候  我對這一份感情的了解   到底有多深?

被傷了一次又一次的心   這個他  會不一樣嗎?

兩年后   他給了我肯定

我敢說   我願意嫁給他   不管他問還是不問   呵呵

不娶我也沒關係   我應該是一個沒有愛情也可以活下去的人

要不   我也有尋找另一片天空的選擇

最重要的是   我們現在是幸福的

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今年和我一起跨年的   是家人   我很慶幸

想忘記以往的心酸   不屬於我的人

說聲對不起   我錯了

還有一聲謝謝   那些從來沒有放棄過我的人

再見2009   我們一起迎接更好的2010年!

Hewwo from Miri

Ahoy! How is everybody? In case you do not know, I’m back in Miri now hehehehe. Been back since Monday so this my *counts 1, 2, 3…* oh my 4th day in Miri already! Loving it so far – not having to worry about work at all! What  a blessing!

I flew with RBA on Monday morning and while I was checking in at the counter, a lady offered me to fly 2 days later on Wednesday and that they’d let me fly with business class and compensate me with $150! I rejected her offer lah, ‘cos I know for sure my mum would be yelling at me over the phone for being so stupid. All because she wants to see me as soon as possible. Awww…… Oh, and the reason why they wanted me to fly 2 days later was because the flight was fully booked. After I got my boarding pass, I didn’t even notice that I was seated at the 2nd last row of the plane! Major T_T

But the flight itself was okay, in spite of a seriously-damn-full plane. Guess it’s always better to have a full plane during a daytime flight compared to a nighttime one. It just feels less creepy. I tend to link nighttime full planes to plane crashes more in my mind. Yikes!

SO. What have I been doing besides eating? Visiting my newborn baby cousin, aunts, uncles & grandma. Those baby Mary Janes fit! I was quite afraid that they’d be too small for her. Luckily they fit her tiny feet. We’re gonna have a big dinner at home tomorrow night, having all my mum’s relatives over to have an early birthday celebration for my brother. He has been trying to annoy me non-stop since I arrived. I have no idea WHY but I guess he just craves for my attention hence the annoying attitude. -_-

Okay, I have to go now. The brother is chanting for me to leave the room so he can use the computer. -_- Bai!

Christmas 2009

It’s Christmas! Merry Christmas everyone! How did you guys celebrate your Christmas? My Christmas Day was spent at home having instant noodles for breakfast lunch & watching Christmas movies on the tele.

We then went to church for Christmas Day Mass and I was asked if I could do the 2nd reading for the day! o_O Thank God I didn’t fall down or misread and say something extremely dumb and make a total fool of myself! Phew~

Had a quiet little Christmas dinner at home with Wing Kin. I cooked lamb stew and prepared some salad. We both ended up really full!

After dinner, we headed to South Perth for some photos since we haven’t taken photos together for quite some time. We’re always busy with our own things nowadays. Anyway, the ‘photoshoot’ was short and fun – lasted for only about 15 minutes or so, lol.

We wanted to kiss under the mistletoe but there wasn’t any. Oh well.

He carried me by surprise in this photo, but had to hold still for 2.5 seconds for the shutter to click. When he put me down, he went, “You’re so heavy.” HAHAHA. I love my boy.

Our next plan was to head to San Churro for a lovely dessert together (sun bian pakto) ‘cos I heard that they’re on a ‘buy 1 get 1 free’ promo today. But guess what lah. After the long drive from South Perth to Freo, parking our car, walking there, we realized that they’re not open!!! Wtf kena cheated T_T

So yeah, I spent my Christmas in simplicity this year but I enjoyed it still 🙂

Let’s also not forget that today is the celebration of the birth of our Lord Jesus! Let’s say this little prayer for each other and our loved ones near & far.

We thank you Lord Jesus, for coming into our lives today, showering us with Your love & gifts. May the gifts that we receive, be shared with those we love and also those who are less fortunate than us. Amen.

Have a Blessed Christmas everyone!

Happy Winter Solstice

Decorated the living room with some Polaroids last night =)

Happy Winter Solstice everyone! I’m missing my mom’s tong yuen terribly now. I can almost smell it in my head but I can’t taste it 😦 I just called home and my sis picked up. She told me everyone’s gathering at our place today – tong yuen for lunch and a feast for dinner. I am so jealous! I’ve always loved family gatherings – all the eating, laughing & playing with kids. *Sniff*

It’s okay… I’m gonna stuff myself silly with tong yuen when I get home, hahahaha. I’m already prepared to put on 5kg for the trip this time.

My mum told me, “Come home and be a queen for a while. Sleep, eat, and just do nothing.” And that, ladies and gentlemen, is exactly what I’m gonna do.

Christmas Pressie

Lookie lookie at what I got from my bosses this year – an iPod Nano!! So apparently my bosses think I’ve been a good girl this year so I get to receive a gift in my Christmas stockings 😛 Thank you bosses! Let’s pray that I will start to like my job in this coming new year… Ho ho ho!

Why pink? My boss figured since I have a pink cell phone, I wouldn’t mind having a pink iPod, hahaha. True that. Don’t mind it actually ‘cos the color’s very vibrant and sui! It has a lot more features compared to the first iPod I bought too. This one can record videos, stream radio (which you can pause & play) and has 8GB capacity. It’s soooo slim that Fi & I were so afraid we’d drop it in between the planks of the jetty while fishing last night.

Oh and 8 more days then I’ll be home. Totally sexxxxxcited! Mama I’m coming home for your love~

For the Little One

For my newborn baby cousin =) Can’t wait to see her in 2 weeks’ time!

I upgraded my baggage size from 15kg to 25kg for my flight from KL to Perth because an old friend, Stephanie warned me about the impact of a crazy shopping frenzy in KL, hahahaha! I’d rather pay for extra baggage now than to pay for penalty charged per kg at the check-in counter!

Gonna be home in exactly 11 more days! That is SO SOON! I’m totally on a holiday mood now hahahaha. Gonna have our Christmas dinner (or was it lunch) tomorrow and holiday will start next Friday! Yippee! My mom said I should’ve booked my tickets earlier so I wouldn’t miss out on a few dinners & gatherings – my cousin’s 满月 dinner & 冻节 gathering for tong-yuen!

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OMG I just witnessed a car chase from my window!!! Some car was speeding and 4-5 police cars were chasing it at full speed. Damn kintio and FF. Fast & Furious, get it? 😆 Some Indian guy saw the scene as well and is now “reporting” to someone on his cellphone. There’s also this other girl screaming in excitement at the other side of the road wtf, lol. So happening one!

Okay, time for me to go fold the mountain of clothes in the bedroom. My living place had been in such a mess since my revision week and I don’t know how much longer can I stand tip-toeing my way to the wardrobe to pick my clothes for the day anymore, hahahahaha. Ciao!

Away Notice

Exam on 15th Dec. Will be busy working & studying the whole week so no updates I suppose.

Meanwhile, my schedule for my coming trip back home:

  • 28th Dec to 8th Jan – Miri
  • 8th Jan to 11th Jan – KL

Will be staying with my cousin, Siaw Wan while in KL. Mirians and peeps in KL, we should meet up! I’m particularly picky with my plans/schedules for KL though. I just wanna shop, shop, shop while in KL. And I just wanna eat, eat, eat while in Miri. HAHAHA.

I don’t know what phone number I’ll use yet. Gonna get a temporary simcard while I’m back and will update here as soon as I know!

Wish me luck for my exam!

2.5 Months Earlier

To my fellow heng dai ji mui-s,

I have an announcement to make. I am flying back to Miri in a couple of weeks’ time – on 28th Dec to be exactly, which is 2.5 months earlier than scheduled.

Change of plan because all the staff are forced to take compulsory leave for Christmas and so I was left with 2 options:

  1. Travel to Sydney with Kin for a Christmas holiday. But I checked the tickets and they cost like friggin’ 800 bucks for a return ticket! WTF. 😡 OR
  2. Fly home to Miri to enjoy good food, fight with my brother, go shopping with my sister and have my mum tuck me into bed and put me to sleep! 😆

I was contemplating whether to stay or not at first, but as soon as Kin said 800 bucks just on tickets alone are way too expensive, I decided to go home. It’s true though. We’d need to worry about accommodation, meals & other incidental expenses as well. Ga ga mai mai would probably end up spending 2k per person! /gasps

Plus by going back home, I get to fully utilize my leave and not get into a negative leave situation again during Chinese New Year. It’s okay if I don’t get to spend CNY back home this year ‘cos at least Kin’s here with me. In the previous years, my CNYs in Perth were just dreadful! I’d dress myself up in red that day and play pc at home. By myself. How sad right? 😦 Oh but I went visiting with my uncle’s family one year and got lots of angpaos HAHAHAHA.

If things go well, I might drop by KL on my way back to Perth as well, for a day or two. Haven’t been there for YEARS (except during flight transits -_-) so I thought it’d be nice to do some shopping during then. Can anyone please let me know if Carnival Sale is still going on by then? Thankssss in advance!

Much ,

Jess