Pamper Me Time

Hello blog, it’s been a while and I’m here for my monthly update again. On the very last day of this month nonetheless.

The previous two weeks have been really trying and challenging for me as the kids were both sick. Gosh, it was just so bad some nights that I just wanna bang my head on the wall or something. I was super over it, cursing under my breath a gazillion times and wondering if anyone would want to take the crying baby away from me. I also felt like I was the worst mother on earth because my babies were sick and here I am feeling all sorry for myself, getting all angst up because they were clingy and wanted ONLY ME as their source of comfort.

Sometimes I feel like I’m going all “Dr Jekyll & Mr Hyde” ‘cos I’m super short-tempered when it comes to waking up to feed at night. But come morning, I’ll feel super guilty and shower my baby with lots of love and kisses and affection.

Sigh.

Well, the good thing is, the kids are well now. After all those crazy hospital and clinic runs by myself with the kids, numerous hand-washing, cuddles, kisses and whatnot, they’re finally well now. I can finally take a breather and treat myself to some special “me-time”!

I was gifted a voucher for a floating session with Beyond Rest by friends about two and a half years ago during Naomi’s full moon party. 2.5 years ago and I just never found the time or the opportunity to be able to squeeze in an hour of a pamper session for myself. And so, I finally decided to do it before I start heading back to work next week. I was so lucky that they decided to honour the gift card still after such a long time, hahahaha!

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I walked in being greeted by a very calming and “zen” atmosphere. Loved it! I was quite tensed that day to be honest as it was Dylan’s first full day at daycare and so I couldn’t help but worry about him all day!

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This was my float pod! It’s super cool and looks ultra-modern/alien-ish.

I started the float not being able to fully relax myself but eventually with time, I did. I think I might have fallen asleep too ‘cos my mind just went blank for a period of time.

It definitely felt as if I spent less than 60 minutes in there. I wouldn’t mind it if I could spend a little extra time in there but just not this time – I was rushing off to pick up my babies instead!

I am really glad that I actually went for this float session. I finally had some time for myself. And for that one hour, I didn’t have to be someone’s mum or someone’s wife. I just had to be ME.

Being a mum and wife is part of my identity, just as I’m a daughter and sister. They’re all a part of me. But they don’t define who I am wholly. Before I was a mother and a wife, I was just myself. I had my own hobbies and interests too. And sometimes I just feel like I’ve lost touch with those things for far too long.

And this one hour has somehow connected me with myself for a bit that day.

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30+3

Oh dear, have I just turned another year older again? ๐Ÿ˜…

Had a really simple celebration at home this year with my humble little family. โ˜บ๏ธย Mr S cooked dinner for us – his staple dish, chicken & mushroom risotto. It was so, so, so,ย so good.

We also had a birthday cake this year!!! And Mr S handmade the cute bunting cake topper for the cake ๐Ÿ˜ย It was a sponge cake with durian flesh & cream and it was simply delicious!

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TADA!!!!!

With my babies

Felt so, so happy having the chance to hold each of my babies in my arms while Mr S and Naomi sang me the birthday song ๐Ÿ˜š

Most of all, I want to thank my mum, for giving birth to me this day, 30+3 ย years ago!!! The amount of pain she must have had to endure in order to give birth to me. And all the love, sweat and pain to raise me as a child to who I am today. All these, I will never, ever be able to repay her. Thank you, Ma!

Now, what wise words do I have for myself this year?

Live healthier.

I have recently developed this unhealthy craving for sugar ever since I started drinking sweet drinks during dinner. T_T I’d like to gradually get rid of this habit.

Also, I haven’t been exercising for way too long. I went back to badminton twice and would LOVE to be able to do this more often. I’m hoping the kids would be sleeping better at night so I could go back to my weekly or fortnightly badminton sessions.

I’d also like to cook more home-cooked meals ‘cos A) it saves money and B) it’s healthier!

Be more patient.

I feel guilty each time I lose my shit with the kids and with Mr S.

With Mr S, I used to hold grudges whenever we argued and sometimes I’d still be mad at him the very next day. But now that I’m no longer a silly, irrational young adult anymore, it’s time I grow up and finally learn to “forgive and forget”.

With the kids, needless to say, they’re just children. They’re still learning what’s right and what’s wrong. I, the adult here, should have MORE patience, so I can teach them about patience. It’s okay for them to make mistakes and rile me up (that’s what kids do to their parents anyway). So, I’d like to remind myself to be more patient and gentle with them.

Find time for myself.

It’s so important to get in touch with myself. Having stayed at home for the past 3 years plus (excluding the brief time I went back to work) because I was either busy being pregnant or breastfeeding or taking care of a toddler, I hardly have time for myself anymore. But I’d like to see a change in that now that Dylan’s gradually learning to become more independent.

I’ve started doing some gardening once again. YASSSS!!! I’ve neglected my plants for way too long and it’s time to pay them some much needed attention. I’d love to slowly put together pots and bowls of beautiful succulents bit by bit. And I want to get a calamansi lime tree for our backyard!

Declutter & organize.

I have to get on with my decluttering tasks. I need to find time to get rid of clothes I no longer wear or hardly wear by either donating them or binning the ones that are too worn out. I do this every now and then but haven’t done so in a while now.

I wanna start organizing things better too, be it in the bedroom, bathroom or kitchen. Our place is quite small so having things lying around really makes the place look cluttered and messy.

Less screen time on the phone.

Pretty self-explanatory ‘cos too much time on the phone takes me away from time spent with my family, myself, and actually getting things done.

Last but not least,

Sleep when I can.

My body and mind need rests. So I can function better when I’m awake and alert.

So off I go now.

Goodnight!

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Happy Year of the Dog 2018!

Happy Lunar New Year to all who’s celebrating!!! ๐Ÿฎ

This year, I’m celebrating the new year with a new member in the family – my gorgeous baby boy, Dylan!!

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My heart is so full โค๏ธ

CNY Portrait Day 1

Our family portrait on the second day of Chinese New Year. It actually felt more like the first day of CNY ‘cos it was a Saturday and Mr S didn’t have to work so we could dress up and go visiting, hehehehe…

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Love, love, love thisย qipao my aunt bought her from Hong Kong. She wore it for CNY as well last year but it fits her much better this year.

Naomi at the dentist

She went to a dental appointment with me in the morning and my dentist was so nice to do a quick general check up for her on the spot right after I was done! My brave little girl wasn’t scared of the dentist at all. Hooray for nailing her first dental check up!

CNY Portrait Day 2

Second day of CNY visiting! Also had a couple of friends over for CNY tidbits and cakes. So glad that the late night bakings are finally over! ๐Ÿ’†๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

Naomi with lions

Brought the kids to watch a lion dance performance at St Thomas More this morning. It was Naomi’s second but I doubt she remembered the first at all ‘cos she was only 2 months old then and was fast asleep in the pram hahahahaha! She really enjoyed it this time. She even got to ‘feed’ the lion a red packet, hehehehe…

I’ve been trying to get her to speak Mandarin, teaching her simpler words such as animal names but I don’t think she has any clue at all, lol! Her pronunciation’s really funny and she really sounds like anย angmoh trying to speak Mandarin!

Update on my Invisalign progress!!

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This is me after five sets of aligners!! (Note: Filtered photo. Sadly, I look nothing like this in real life HAHA!)

6 wks into Invisalign

Real, unfiltered photos (Day 1 vs. Week 6). I can really see the difference when I place the photos side by side!! Can you? I also think I lost a bit of weight. Maybe it’s just the flash though. ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

Dylan’s Sleeping Routine…

Praise and thank you Lord! Dylan’s sleeping pattern is much, MUCH better now! I was just reading my last post just then and realized how depressed I was just a month ago over his bedtime crankiness and unsettled behavior.

I was just trying my luck every night. Trying different things and routines to see if it would help him settle himself to sleep better and I guess I finally hit the jackpot and we’ve finally found out what works for us! He’s still not sleeping through the night but I’m just so, so glad that there are no more crazy tantrums before bedtime and that he can now sleep for 3-4 hours straight as compared to the past 1 hour intervals. ๐Ÿ™‚

Newfound Freedom!!

Because of this, I now have my newfound freedom every night after he goes to bed. After bathing and cleaning the dirty dishes and tidying up the kitchen and play area, I get at least an hour or two ALL TO MYSELF!!!

I’ve been keeping myself busy with Sims 4, even finishing Crazy Rich Asians by Kevin Kwan (GASPS!). I’m currently the last on the reservation queue for China Rich Girlfriend.

By the way, is it just me or does time passes super quickly when you’re spending time by yourself?! It’s bizarre!!!

My Little Angel

I have both kids at home with me today and it was actually a rather fun day. We went to the churchโ€™s playgroup mid-morning, as we always do every Thursday. Then, we dropped by my auntyโ€™s place to visit my cousin and had microwave lunch together, haha! They both behaved really, really well so it was a no sweat, no drama morning ๐Ÿ˜Œ

The both of them napped almost as soon as we got home. Naomi napped for 3.5 hours!! Didi took a while longer to fall asleep and didnโ€™t sleep for as long. But I myself also managed to lie down and shut my eyes for a bit so that was a big plus!

Come evening, Mr S finally got home from work. I decided to give him a break today and bathe Naomi myself instead. Itโ€™s been a while since I last bathed her anyway so I thought itโ€™d be a nice thing to do.

As I was washing her, she noticed that my knuckle was a bit red. I wasnโ€™t actually hurt or anything. It was just reddish for some reason. Then this conversation ensued:

Naomi: (Pointing at my knuckle) Oh no!! What happened to mamaโ€™s hand? Itโ€™s ouchie!

Me: Oh… itโ€™s nothing.

Naomi: (Pauses. Then said) Be careful, mama…

Oh mannnn…… my heart!!! She is just so, so sweet at times. It makes all the crazy and tearful days worthwhile!!! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž

Dearest

Fiona shared this MV with me this morning and oh! Them feels…

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It’s 8:47pm. The baby is asleep. I’ve taken my shower and brushed my teeth. Technically, I should be in bed already. ‘Cos I’m tired as hell and this stupid lingering cough hasn’t left me yet. UGH!

But, no. I’m soย ็Šฏ่ดฑ I decided to sneak out to the living room and turn on my Mac and here I am!

I opened iTunes and picked a song to play. Man…. It’s been a while since I specifically picked a song for myself to listen to, instead of a Wiggles/Barney/Mother Goose nursery rhyme for Naomi. This feels sooooo good!

So, we’re all heading back to Miri next month!!! My brother is getting married!!! Finally booked the tickets recently and I’m really looking forward to the trip soon!! It’s only going to be a super short 10 days trip though ‘cos Mr S hasn’t accumulated enough annual leave. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ We’d better make full use of those 10 days and have a helluva time!

Perth’s weather has been quite crazy lately. It’s well into mid-spring already but we were still having super cold and chilly days up until two days ago. And suddenly, it felt like summer all of a sudden with the mercury hitting the 30s these two days! It’s driving us nuts. I know I’ve been waiting for the warmer days to finally come ‘cos let’s face it, showering in the cold weather is just really, really shitty hahahaha! But after feeling the heat these two days, I’m kinda dreading for theย realย Perth summer to come!

Also, I don’t know how Dylan’s gonna cope as he’s gradually developed eczema ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Poor darling started having red patches and tiny raised bumps all over his body since two days ago. It really breaks my heart watching him like that… And I just don’t know what else can I do to help him get better. Not gonna delve into the whole eczema treatment discussion thingy here.

Anyway, time for me to sign off now. I think I’ve had enough indulgence for tonight. It was short but definitely sweet. Goodnight!

Tackling Two

A blog update!! Man, can’t believe I have the time to do this now, hahaha! Well, I totally failed to do my obligatory posts for the past two months and I guess we all know why. ๐Ÿ˜

So, what has changed since my last update back in June? Mom and sis flew back two weeks ago… ๐Ÿ˜”ย I don’t know how it all happened so quickly this time. It’s crazy because Dylan turned three months old three days ago and I’m likeย WHATTT?! Seriously. He’ll be a teenager before I know it.

Meanwhile, there’s the challenge of taking care of both of my kids at home when Naomi’s not in child care.ย Aha! I dreaded that day to arrive before mom and sis flew back. I wasn’t certain if I could cope. But I knew that I had no choice but to cope. I had to do it. I’d learn how to do it. And master it I will.

Guess what? Turned out I didn’t freak out as much as I thought I would on my first day with them alone. Sure, there were some meltdowns from each of them and my heart raced while (1) trying to push a bobbling head to my breast and soothe a whining and crying toddler at the same time, snot all over her face (2) yelling at aforementioned toddler to stop climbing up the TV unit while carrying a sleeping baby, which resulted in the baby crying in shock ‘cos of my screaming (3) trying to cook with two crying kids at the same time and the ultimate (4) trying to make them nap at the same time.

I must admit, this crazy thingy called parenthood ISย challenging; especially when a child is sick (don’t even go there!). But, I think it isn’t so bad after all. Most probably because I have such a good support system from Mr S, lol! ๐Ÿ˜™ย Our tough days still end with some cuddles and shut eyes. Although not quality ones like the ones we had BEFORE we had kids ๐Ÿ˜ย And we still wake up in the morning with a brand new day ahead of us with smiles, giggles and hugs from the kids. So, I really thank God for this; the tough but fulfilling days that we have.

It’s true when they say:

The days are long but the years are short.

 

Only 1.5 More Months to Go?!

SERIOUSLY?! Where has the time gone?

But honestly, at this stage now, I kinda can’t wait to pop my second baby out now, lol! Things are really starting to get a little tougher these days. I tend to wake up at 4am for a pee and then have difficulty falling back to sleep for an hour or so almost every night. ๐Ÿ˜ต

And I’m so sick of having to lie down on my left side to sleep now. Most of the time, I just go, “AHHHH, I don’t give a sh*t anymore. Imma just lie down on my right for five minutes!!!” Then end up falling asleep for wayyyy longer than that, hahahahaha! I’m sorry ๅฐ bump no. 2!!! ๐Ÿ˜ข

I just need to work for another four more weeks then I’m off again! Wheeeeee!!!!! Mum and sis will be here end of next month to visit and help out again! Can’t wait for them to be back!! The house is definitely merrier with them around, hehehehehehe… Plus I love it when Naomi spends time with popo and yiyi. It’s so heartwarming to see how much they love her ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜˜

๐ŸŽต Can’t wait to see you againnnnnnnn…… ๐ŸŽถ

Definitely wearing that romper way too much hahahaha!! It was gifted to me by my sister and they’re super duper comfy!

Note to self: About time I fix the misaligned photoย in the photo frame! ๐Ÿ˜

Another one with the cheeky girl!

She’s been learning soooo much these days โ€” especially from daycare. And I’m so pleased for her that she’s finally settled down in daycare now. The carers praised her for adapting and doing so well! ย I’m more relieved now as I know that she’s being cared for, her needs taken care of when I’m at work (earning more money ๐Ÿ’ต to buy her formula ๐Ÿผ, hahahahahahaha) and that she’s happy and thriving. ๐Ÿ™‚

She’s finally learned how to walk after she started daycare. Perhaps she wanted to catch up with the other kids who are already walking hahahaha! And now she’s learning to talk!! Man, when she says ‘nose’, it’s with an Aussie accent!! ๐Ÿ™„

It’s such a bittersweet feeling to watch her grow and witness her every milestone and progress. As a parent, you’re happy that your child is growing to be healthy and happy. But at the same time, you feel like with their new gained confidence and independence, they’ll depend on you less and less. ๐Ÿ˜ข

Last but not least, a selfie to end the post (as usual, HAHA!) *Snicker* So sorry to do this but this filter does make me look so much more refreshed than I really am in real life. In real life, I just look like a tired, old hag because I really AM tired almost ALL the time. ๐Ÿ˜ด

Quick question for you guys!! I’m thinking of cutting my hair to a lob again some time before baby is due. The longer hair will keep me warm in winter though! BUT BUT BUT, with the confinement thingy going on, I won’t be able to wash my hair for quite a while so I can foresee that it’s gonna be quite gross!! ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฐ

What do you think? Lob or no lob? ๐Ÿค”

So, I’m Back to Work

Yes, back to the workforce I go, despite the fact that I’ll be delivering another baby in just a few more months, hahahaha!! ๐Ÿ˜œ

I’ve been feeling slightlyย nervous in the days leading up to yesterday. Mainly because I don’t know how Naomi will cope at daycare. She still had problems settling herself to sleep during snoozeย times โ€” she’ll only settle down and take her naps/sleep if I lie down next to her. ๐Ÿ˜ฃ

So, I’ve been trying to get her to get used to sleeping without having me lie down next to her. (Imagine having me squeeze inside her cot with her at night with my baby bump! ๐Ÿคฐ๐Ÿป Man, oh, man it’s a torture for BOTH of us!) I slowly transitioned from lying down next to her, to sitting at one end of the cot and singing songs to her to calm her down, to lying on a mattress outside the cot while she’s inside and having me holding her hand.

I was quite surprised when the carers told me that she coped so well yesterday! Ate a good portion of her lunch, had her morning tea, and most of all, took her two naps while she was there! And she didn’t need someone to lie down next to her, lol. But one of the carers had to sit next to the cot while she settled herself down to sleep though, haha!

Last night, I didn’t even have to hold her hand for her to fall asleep, hahaha! I just lied down on the mattress next to her cot and she fell asleep on her own. FINALLY!!! I was always reluctant to try out the CIO (cry-it-out) sleep training method ‘cos she’s the kind of baby who wouldn’t stop crying until you give in. ๐Ÿ˜“

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Taken just as I parked outside the childcare centre. She was clueless as to what was gonna happen next. ๐Ÿ˜ข She did, however, attend the orientation for 2.5 weeks prior though, but only for an hour or so. Yesterday was her first full day at daycare by herself.

My heart sank as I turned around and saw her looking back at me like that. ๐Ÿ’”

Oh, and she’s sporting a fringe ‘cos I cut her hair for her earlier this week, hahahaha! Her front hair was getting so long that they kept irritating her eyes.

 

My first day back at work was… mundane. Lol! I have after all, been working there for almost a decade already. Everything was like a second nature to me hey. One thing I still hated though, was the traffic jam on my way to work. ๐Ÿ˜ช๐Ÿ”ซ

I couldn’t have hoped for the time to pass faster while I was in the office, haha. When I finally pulled up at the driveway at home and got down to open the garage door, I saw Mr S place her tiny body on the couch by the window.

ARGHHHH!!!! God, how I missed her.

Strawberry Fields Forever

Last weekend, we celebrated Mr S’ birthday in advance with a couple of our close friends over dinner and strawberry picking the following morning. Had a really good time with our friends since it’s been a while since we had a get-together ๐Ÿ™‚

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Argh, making myself so hungry looking at these photos again! >_<

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Hungry guests!! Nom noms!

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Why are babies soooo cute?!? Arghhhh!!! Kyden!!!!!!! ๐Ÿ’™ He was super guai that night compared to chichapo Naomi, lol!!

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But chichapo also okay, because daddy and mummy love you all the more! ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’ย You make daddy soooo happy this year on his birthday because there’s you in our lives now! ๐Ÿ˜˜

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Gross fly on baby’s face, hahahahahahahaha!!!

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There were much bigger ones which I didn’t take photos of. It was quite hard to bend/squat down carrying a bag of rice in front of me. ๐Ÿ˜

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Sleeping baby, WOOHOO!!

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Best photobomb of the year. ๐Ÿ˜

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Strawberry top to go with the strawberry theme for the day!! ๐Ÿ˜

Last but not least, an oldie to share with you all here. Enjoy!