Hello blog, it’s been a while and I’m here for my monthly update again. On the very last day of this month nonetheless.
The previous two weeks have been really trying and challenging for me as the kids were both sick. Gosh, it was just so bad some nights that I just wanna bang my head on the wall or something. I was super over it, cursing under my breath a gazillion times and wondering if anyone would want to take the crying baby away from me. I also felt like I was the worst mother on earth because my babies were sick and here I am feeling all sorry for myself, getting all angst up because they were clingy and wanted ONLY ME as their source of comfort.
Sometimes I feel like I’m going all “Dr Jekyll & Mr Hyde” ‘cos I’m super short-tempered when it comes to waking up to feed at night. But come morning, I’ll feel super guilty and shower my baby with lots of love and kisses and affection.
Well, the good thing is, the kids are well now. After all those crazy hospital and clinic runs by myself with the kids, numerous hand-washing, cuddles, kisses and whatnot, they’re finally well now. I can finally take a breather and treat myself to some special “me-time”!
I was gifted a voucher for a floating session with Beyond Rest by friends about two and a half years ago during Naomi’s full moon party. 2.5 years ago and I just never found the time or the opportunity to be able to squeeze in an hour of a pamper session for myself. And so, I finally decided to do it before I start heading back to work next week. I was so lucky that they decided to honour the gift card still after such a long time, hahahaha!
I walked in being greeted by a very calming and “zen” atmosphere. Loved it! I was quite tensed that day to be honest as it was Dylan’s first full day at daycare and so I couldn’t help but worry about him all day!
This was my float pod! It’s super cool and looks ultra-modern/alien-ish.
I started the float not being able to fully relax myself but eventually with time, I did. I think I might have fallen asleep too ‘cos my mind just went blank for a period of time.
It definitely felt as if I spent less than 60 minutes in there. I wouldn’t mind it if I could spend a little extra time in there but just not this time – I was rushing off to pick up my babies instead!
I am really glad that I actually went for this float session. I finally had some time for myself. And for that one hour, I didn’t have to be someone’s mum or someone’s wife. I just had to be ME.
Being a mum and wife is part of my identity, just as I’m a daughter and sister. They’re all a part of me. But they don’t define who I am wholly. Before I was a mother and a wife, I was just myself. I had my own hobbies and interests too. And sometimes I just feel like I’ve lost touch with those things for far too long.
And this one hour has somehow connected me with myself for a bit that day.